Emotional Breakdown

I didn't expect it at all. It just happened. My emotion got carried away by someone's ridiculous comments about my behavior. Not just someone. The people who I'm staying with, my relatives. And their comments were about NOTHING. The least important thing I can think of in this whole world! But I got carried away. I reacted. I hurt them and myself. Then I couldn't come back from there. It happened last night. And I'm still crying over this stupid thing.

I'm feeling a little bit pressure these days for this translation job I took besides my full-time job. I'm a bit behind schedule, and I lost some data of the work I've already done! I was frustrated. It was the worst timing. Really.

I cursed...in my mind...the worst words I could think of. I've been trying to be positive. Exercises, affirmation statements, be thankful to others, be cheerful, be happy... All those good stuff has been helping me a great deal. But last night, I felt everything went backwards. I felt all walls were caving to me. Over the STUPIDEST thing ever. That's what bothers me the most.

I felt I've been walking on a thin line. Then some mean person gave me a little push, and I just fell into hell. I wasn't strong enough to hold up. I kept falling deeper and deeper. I wish I were already that strong and clever since that's what I've been working on. I guess it'll take some more time.

Please stay away from negative people as far as you can. Stay with the positive ones. Even if you don't talk to them, just by the atmosphere they project can affect you in a positive way. My cousin and her husband are the real positive ones. I love to spend time with them.

Anyways, thanks for reading. Thanks to blogging that gives me somewhere to release my frustration.

I'll be okay soon. Next time, I'll learn how to put my emotion aside and react in a clever way. I'm on the path of learning. I know all I need is more time. I know I'll be able to accomplish it someday. Don't let others' negativity affect you. You're the only one who's responsible for your own emotions. Don't let small things bother you. They're nothing at all compared to your goal and your hope for the future. When I calm down, I can see it. Actually I knew all that time, but I still couldn't control myself. My emotion just took over me completely. It was a bit scary...

Anyway, wish you all a good weekend. I will have to work on my translation project, but I'll try to be happy.

Treat everyone as you want to be treated... Be tough-minded, but tender hearted...